1. |
Ugly Things
03:14
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Born in the bedroom
A flower on the bed
You picked my petals
Till the colors bled
Down by a dead river
Disease is sure to grow
Your love’s a dead river
But you will never know
When will the light show
In on your soul
We’ve done such ugly things
And neither of us can go back home
I’ve given you a piece of me
But its not what you’re looking for
I could’ve given my love
But your heart ain’t an open door
It was black silk
That entrapped your pulse
It was my darkness
You thought you could hold
You just wanted my body
You didn’t want my heart
Thought I could handle
But I will tear you apart
Chained to a bed
In a dark shed
You said you like that
But it’s not what I wanted
Spreading my legs now
On the dirt floor
I said a prayer but I
Don’t feel anything anymore
I’ve given you a piece of me
But its not what you’re looking for
I could’ve given my love
But your heart ain’t an open door
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2. |
Desist
05:01
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I’ve burrowed myself inside the carcass of love
Don’t tell me I’ve gone too far it’s not enough
I’ve been made to feel so crazy I can’t feel my brain
Am I numb, am I dumb, am I worthless, am I insane
History with us never repeats
I hold onto thoughts you couldn’t keep
Am I afraid to love again
Going through the shame of heavenly regret
Heavenly regret
They said in a perfect world I wouldn’t exist
Tell me I’m your girl so you can kiss
I’ll never be a man in a world like this
I’m too hard to understand so I must desist
Desist
Your another scab on my heart
I pick at till it rips apart
You know the worthless things I do to myself
I am my own pain and I am my own hell
Am I afraid to love again
Going through the shame of heavenly regret
I’ve resown the wound they said could not be fixed
I’ve resown the wound they said could not be fixed
Just to cut open the stitches
Just to cut open the stitches
That same old color between you and I
That same old color between you and I
It must not be real, must not be real, it must be dye
The church I go to said the same old thing
The writings in the book set me aflame
Am I afraid to love again
Going through the shame of heavenly regret
Heavenly regret
Heavenly regret
They said in a perfect world I wouldn’t exist
Tell me I’m your girl so you can kiss
I’ll never be a man in a world like this
I’m too hard to understand so I must desist
Desist
Desist
Desist
Desist
Let’s make a blood pact so you can relax
To never love eachother again
If our bodies are the temples burning in the night
The kerosene is our skin
Liquid vixens, damned descendants
Of the righteous families
Why the hell do we feel this way
To God are we too disgusting
Desist
Desist
Desist
Desist
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3. |
The Blessed Virgin
05:46
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I don't want to keep clawing at same wall
I want to speak in the same tone you call
Calling out for me, calling out these thighs
To set your body free from the dark arise
I don't want to be your conduit
I have a lot to prove and that's just not it
And I try to tell myself there are better things ahead
Besides this musty bedroom, besides this dusty bed but
No one else can save me
No one else can save me now
I have to save myself
Save myself somehow
I'm not a virgin to pain
I'm not a virgin to the rain
I know that in my heart
I'm a virgin to remain
But I can't keep letting this get the best of me
Slitting up my thighs and cutting up my knees
I
I don't want to be your conduit
I have a lot to prove and that's just not it
And I try to tell myself there are better things ahead
Besides this musty bedroom, besides this dusty bed but
No one else can save me
No one else can save me now
I have to save myself
Save myself somehow
I'm not a virgin to pain
I'm not a virgin to the rain
I know that in my heart
I'm a virgin to remain
But I can't keep letting this get the best of me
Slitting up my thighs and cutting up my knees
I can't keep letting this turn my world to hurt
They haven't seen the best of me, the best I deserve
I'm ugly and I'm blessed
I'm wretched and I'm blessed
You'll never touch my chest
Or the heart that is at rest
I'm broken and I'm blessed
I'm hurt just like the rest
There lies a place for love
Under my flesh
I'm the blessed virgin
I'm the blessed virgin
I'm the blessed virgin
I'm the blessed virgin
You can't
You can't
Love
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4. |
Little Deer
04:39
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Little deer
Scurry Away
And when you leave
You disobey so
Duck your head
Leave the bed
Wicked don’t rest
They want to suck your soul
Out from where it hides
They’re waiting for you to die
Take your body in the night
Use your skin as a shelter
To put themselves in
And you’re bones becomes a structure
Pain will never give in
Don’t let your eyes
Rest for a second
They’ll take you when you’re weak
Your tears become their weapon
Take it from another that has been
Destroyed
They won’t dissipate until they get their
Toy
It’s much too, much too late for a Christmas
Joy
They took a broken girl, they took a broken
Boy
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
Little deer
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5. |
This Is the Life
03:57
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I breathe, I wheeze, inhaling the smoke
My lungs, they choke, a muscle provoked
I love that they put up to adopt
A heart, they lied, they could live without
This is the life
This is the life
This is the life
It crawls and gnaws upon the flesh
It's clothes impose an impending threat
The sun is now a bowl of cancer
The moon is now the devils dancer
This is the life
This is the life
This is the life
This is the life
This is the life
This is the life
We live and we die
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6. |
Doll
03:44
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7. |
Agony
03:45
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Repetition in my dreams
Recurrence of my plague
Within these walls lurk happy ghosts
They've been haunting me for days
Anger used to keep me warm at night, now
It leaves a mark like tears leave
I used to wish for euphoria
Dysphoria only leads to agony
I used to bathe in cigarette ash
Just like my Mother I joined the pack
I'd get so mad, take my fists, clench them up
Just like my Father has
I've come so farther they say
Acknowledgment I feign
I find it hard to grasp
The happiness I've had
When all my life I've been asleep
For you
Something tells me I could be something
Without you by my side
Something tells me I am not nothing
So don't make me feel worthless
Tonight
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8. |
Exile (First Version)
05:10
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One moment at a time
I feel worthless
That’s why I wait by your side
You give me purpose
When I can’t find it myself
When Hell is all I know
When I fear the heavenly glow
Of the cross
But who’s to say that we deserve it
Who deserves anything anymore
Who could justify saying I’m worthless
When my heart is the strongest through this war
I have markings on my thighs
Dying stars in my eyes
But something tells me
You don’t care
And now that I finally realize
I don’t need to sculpt and size
Myself to be perfect
Perfection’s never there
All that is there is your heavenly smile
And your loving stare
A drug could take this away
So I stay a crazy bitch
And I think you of love it
Sometimes you have to admit
That you don’t
But it’s okay, no need for forgiveness
We are under our own laws
To stay true to our “flaws”
But who's to say that we’re imperfect
When the image of it is in constant orbit
And who knows what perfect is
Something made up by a purist
I have markings on my thighs
Dying stars in my eyes
But something tells me
You don’t care
And now that I finally realize
I don’t need to sculpt and size
Myself to be perfect
Perfection’s never there
All that’s there is your heavenly smile
All that’s there is my body’s exile
All that’s there is my dark hair
And your loving stare
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