What the hell am I doing here
Came to the same place every year
I live the same life, I commit the same crimes
I am the same wife that’s been holding back a year of tears
Because nothing is the same
When they know what’s in your head
It’s just another cigarette
To watch burn in smoke signal regrets

I hate the person that I am
I hate the person I’ve become
But it’s hard to leave a loving hand
A hand that knows how to shove
You don’t love love me like you say you do
I stayed tied to a bed untrue
I’ll suffocate myself till my face matches
This sad heart of blue

I’ll love you like Sadie Mae
Ill swallow like a heart in pain
I would’ve taken everything
Until they would’ve taken me
You can’t look me in the eye
Your touch feels like suicide
Death to the life we once had
A life I’ll never get back

What the hell am I doing here
Who the hell dared to let me in
I’m not a body of innocence
I’ve been marked with a body of sin
And I’m afraid I won’t get to heaven
Because I’m made to withstand hell
Out of all of gods angels
I just had to be the one that fell

And when I say I’m crazy
Don’t forget we live in a crazy world
But I know I’ll always be that crazy girl
Wear a man’s marking like a pearl
He hit me and it felt like a kiss
Cause if it didn’t it felt so bad
I’ll always be a crazy girl
The craziest you’ll ever have

I’ll love you like Sadie Mae
Ill swallow like a heart in pain
I would’ve taken everything
Until they would’ve taken me
Love letters from a padded room
I’ve been trying to cut into my leg
I’ve been asking god to live
But you know that I will never beg

And I’m afraid I won’t get to heaven
Because I’m made to withstand hell
Out of all of gods angels
I just had to be the one that fell
And I’m afraid I won’t get to heaven
Because I’m made to withstand hell
Out of all of gods angels
I just had to be the one that fell

I’ll love you like Sadie Mae
Ill swallow like a heart in pain
I would’ve taken everything
Until they would’ve taken me
You can’t look me in the eye
Your touch feels like suicide
Death to the life we once had
A life I’ll never get back

You can’t look me in the eye
You can’t look me in the eye
You can’t look me in the eye
You can’t

I’m a crazy girl
I’m a crazy girl
I’m a crazy girl
Borne from a crazy world